Seize the day

After these many years on earth, I learnt something important, and that is to seize every moment. Savour it. Enjoy it. This is a tough lesson learnt, I swear. Carpe diem, or seize the day, after translation, has always been my motto of my life. Yet, I seldom apply it in my life.

After coming to University, I learnt that the best years of my life aid in my high school years. Those were the years when I was the happiest. Yes, there is no denying that there are downs. But however, the ups during my high school years were genuine ups. Those were the real happiness. The real laughters, the real fun.

It's when I started my uni years that I learnt to fake a laughter, fake a smile. Some people say that this is important, but I digress. It's not what I'm meant to do. However, as I progess onto the stepping stone into society, I felt myself letting go of my real indidual self. I lost the real me, and in place, I faked a Raymond there. As i learnt in psychology last time, this is one of the defense mechanism of men.

However, I guess it's time to stop faking. It's time for me to be who I really am. I have a goal, a mission to accomplish. It's high time that I fulfill it. I still need a lot of time trying to fit into this new society here in Perth. But mark my words. Once day I succeed. I shall be famous and I shall be glad with what I have.

At times I'm alone, but I need to know that I'm actually not alone. I have true friends, but just not next to me now. I have family too, but yet also not next to me now. But I know one sure thing. I have God with me all the while. His joy shall me my strength of which I will strife on.

The last straw

Yes! This is the effing last straw! I don't want anymore shit from you guys anymore. Excuses my arse. Please go shove a pole up your ass. I ain't not gonna take anymore shit from you. Please go kill yourselves and make the world a better place asshole...

Surrealism

I wake up everyday and the first thing I feel is that I've been doing that for the past 19 years of my life. Well, technically, I have been waking up everyday for the past 19 years of my life. LOL. But the surrealism steps in when I go brush up and head to university. It feels like I have been doing this for a long time.

It seriously doesn't seem that I'm studying in the Land Down Under, aka, Australia. I just feel like I'm home. It's a weird feeling. I don't know how to explain it. It is just surreal when I tell myself I'm actually in Australia and not in Malaysia. It feels surreal that I'm living by myself and being independent.

I always wonder that if I didn't apply to UWA and just head off to US, would I be happier? Or should I have taken UEC and probably go to Singapore instead to study? Sigh. I always wonder about this and that. There are just too many things in life that I regret. Why can't I just peek into the future to see what will happen if I made the choice and finally just choose the best path?

I guess I should feel blessed that my family can afford to send me overseas to study. But I can't shake off the feeling of uneasiness away. I'll just try to make the best out of it.

Anyway, about my last post, I think I have the solution. I shall continue treating people how I want them to treat me, without considering how they treat me. LOL. I know it might sound complicated and weird, but that is what I'm adviced to do and I will do it. I shall remember Your words.

40 hour famine aftermath

After an agonizing 40 hours, I've finally finished my mission! Yay! 40 hours of no solid food was seriously tough! Just imagine the torture when you can't eat while you look at others enjoy their food. Oh gosh! I never knew 40 hours could mean 40 thousand years! I just broke fast with my cell members. We ate KFC. Haha. I know. It's a little ironic. But hey! 40 hours is no easy feat!

Hm.. What did I learn from this experience? Well.. I can still be a little energetic after fasting for about 24 hours. Haha. I managed to walk back home from my cell leaders house after 24 hours of fasting, which was about 600m away. Not too bad hey!

Lee Mun also joined me in this incredible feat of 40 hours of fasting. Not too bad for spiritual growth I guess. I hope that we will grow moer spiritually.. On a lighter note, I'M GONNA HAVE STEAMBOAT TONIGHT WITH MY CELL MEMBERS! YAY!

Oh yea. I've learnt something today too. Calling everyone to go to a certain place doesn't mean that you will get invited to go for outings with those people in the future. I've learnt this the hard way. Anyhow, I won't be asking them out anymore, I guess. But somewhere deep within me, I know I shouldn't do that. What happened to my life motto that goes "Do unto people what you want people to do unto you" Sigh.

I guess under some circumstances, it would be hard to stick to my motto. But I guess I should try to stick to it. It would be hard though. Give me strength God...

I seldom (or should I say never) encountered these kind of problems in Malaysia. Sigh. Why people in Perth are so self-centered? Not all in general. But SOME. I hope you don't take this the wrong way >.<

DIE PLEASE

YES! YOU OVER THERE! DIE! I'm talking about Dynamics, a subject that I'm taking now. OMFG! It's so freaking hard! It can go and die in Timbuktu is all I care! GRRR! The subject makes me so freaking annoyed and pissed off at the same time! Why the hell must this subject be invented?
As a torture material? I swear it can go like this...

Captured Prisoner: I WON'T TELL YOU MY SECRET
Captor: Yes you shall. Behold the power of this dynamic question! Solve it!
Captured Prisoner: NOOOOooo... I can't solve it! I'll tell you all of my secrets!

Sigh. Can someone go kill this subject for me please? The reward shall be my gratitude, and mind you, my gratitude is hard to come by. Bwahahaha.

On a ligher note, I'm joining in the 40 hour famine! Basically in this activity, I can literally fast from anything for 40 hours! I can fast food, fast furniture, fast homework, fast talking, fast breathing etc etc. LOL. I chose to fast from gossipping. Gawd. It's gonna be hard. And a new addition, I'm going to fast from eating too, I hope I can go on for 40 hours without eating! Wish me luck!

And if you're in Perth, COME DONATE TO THIS GOOD CAUSE! I'm fasting gossip and food because I wanna raise funds for the poverty stricken countries! Support me!

120th post in this blog

Wow. I can't believe that I've been blogging for about over a year now. Sigh. How time flies eh. It's the 5th week of uni already. I've been back in boring old Perth for about 1 month already, and my room is a great mess. I shall take a picture of my messy room one day and upload it to my blog. Behold the room of a teenage boy! xD

Anyway, I had my first test of the semester today. I think I kinda screwed up the last page. But then, I don't care already. I think I did my best (kinda my best) xD. And today, I had my first presentation ever in Perth. GOSH! I was so freaking nervous!!! My hands were cold and palms sweaty. But anyway, I managed to survive the ordeal. I think I did quite well too =D

Nothing much happened today. But I think I seriously need to start to study already. I haven't been studying much at all. How dead am I.... I need will power!!!

On a lighter note, I'm bored. Hahahaha. I'm always bored. Sigh. Will I ever be not bored? LOL

Untitled just because I want it to be

I've finished my 1003 essay!!! 1500 words! I think I did it in a few hours, but if I weed out the time that I surfed facebook, msn, dota, fmylife while doing that essay, I think I would have needed about 2 hours to finish it. Ah. Procrastination rocks!

Well today, I had lunch at Sizzlers in Morley. Omg. It's like so far away. Had to take a bus to city then another bus to Morley. Total time on bus: approx. 1 hr. It was hell tiring... After reaching Sizzlers, we had to wait for Kishan the birthday boy. He was LATE!

When he reached, we all said Happy Birthday to him and then faked leaving xD But he acted indifferent. Sigh. Mission failed there. But anyway, we still hung around outside Sizzlers and finally got into Sizzlers about 3 hours later. Jokes. About 10 minutes later xD

Anyway, I seriously feel very bad for Kishan. We didn't get him enough pressies. Oh well. More to come KISHAN! LOOK OUT! Anyway, after entering Sizzlers, we took another 15 minutes just to decide what to eat. Sigh. Why is everyone so indecisive?

But anyhow, we sat down. Then Sin Yee and I went off the the Salad Bar to grab some cake for Kishan. We basically took every topping available there. We were kinda in a hurry. It was hillarious xD

The lunch went on without much problem. But oh wow. The food! IT WAS HELL GOOD!!! I ordered a T-bone steak. OMG! IT WAS SO HUGE!!!!! I swear that it could feed the entire world population. But the taste. YUMM! SUPERB! MARVELOUS! WONDERFUL! YUMMY! =D Liz couldn't finish her pork ribs steak so she gave some to me. It was hell good too! But there was just too much bones there >.<

Anyway, the lunch then proceeded on without any problem. Then Sin Yee and I got bored and we started to play a game - daring each other to eat some kind of food combination. Sin Yee first dared me to eat a chip dipped in coffee and thousand island sauce. Then Liz had to come and add loads of pepper and salt to the chip. Sigh. A dare is still a dare. I ate it =D

Then I forgot what I dared Sin Yee to eat. But anyhow, she ate it dutifully xD THE NEXT PART IS HORRIFIC!!! PREPARE YOURSELVES!!!

Evil Liz and Evil Sin Yee went 'trigger happy'. They took a cup and set off to the drinks counter. They mixed every drink together for me to drink. It was actually ok. Then, they came back and dared me to drink. I was being a pussy. Didn't dared to drink. Little did I know there was more to come.

I think I drank that combination and it wasn't too bad. But then, Sin Yee added Coffee. Then Matt added his leftover chicken bones. IT WAS STARTING TO GET GROSS. Then Jon dared me to drink that combination, saying that he will treat me to Chilliz for lunch if I drank it. I contemplated a while and said yes. But then, Adrian said to add pepper sauce. I asked Jon again would he raise the bet. Jon said he would raise it to 2 lunches.

AND THE HORROR STARTS

Remember, in the drink, there are now:
1. Every soft drink available
2. Coffee
3. Leftover Chicken Bones with bits of meat on it and some fat and sauce

NEXT.
4. Adrian added pepper sauce and lemon
5. Someone added tiramisu cake
6. Salt and pepper are added
7. Some unidentified sauce is added

THAT IS SERIOUSLY A VILE COMBINATION. The sad part is, I drank a sip. OMG! IT TASTED LIKE PUKE! YOU CAN FEEL CHUNKS OF STUFF GOING INTO YOUR ESOPHAGUS! YUCK!

I won the bet =D Thanks Jon =D

After that, Ben drank it. Prita drank it. Then I think most of the people at the table drank it, with the exception of Leemun, Liz and someone else I think. I think Jordon didn't drink it either. Not too sure.

That was the highlight of the lunch xD THANKS KISHAN FOR SUCH A NICE LUNCH!

Anyway, just ffs (guess this abbreviation), SEE THIS CHAT!

Now we know that Adrian likes to screw girls when his parents aren't home =D

Thankful

I'm now 19 years old. I'm starting to feel thankful to my parents. Sigh. I was such an annoying kid when I was younger...

I still remember fighting with my parents when I was younger. They kinda forced me to take piano and violin. Now, I'm very thankful that they forced me to take those because I rely on those instruments at times to release stress.

And yet again, my parents forced me to learn Mandarin. Gosh. I still remember those days. I hated Mandarin with a vengeance (and still kinda do xD)! But now, I can speak Mandarin people who can't really speak English well. And yeah. I won't be left out in conversations. Haha.

I'm really thankful that I have my parents. I don't know why but I really feel that way now. Maybe it's because it's late at night and I just kinda noticed it today.

It's because just now, we went to Northbridge to eat. I was seated at this table of around 8 people. Only 1 person in this table doesn't know Mandarin at all (Another one knows a little). And so, the others (sometimes including me, when I'm not talking to the banana) were speaking in Mandarin. Thus, leaving the odd one out. Which makes me glad that I know Mandarin.

I want to do more. This is my current goal.

It's coming to the 3rd week!

Emotions are actually boiling deep within me. It's August again. 1 year ago, this time, I sent some of my friends off to the airport as they depart for US.

9 months ago, I never thought that I would be here in Perth.
9 months ago, I thought I will be going to America.
9 months ago, I was having a happy time in INTI.
9 months ago, I never fathom I would be alone in Perth.

9 months later, I'm here in Perth.
9 months later, most of my AUP friends are leaving for America.
9 months later, I'm regretting yet again (It's time number 19232342786) for not staying with AUP.
9 months later, I'm feeling nostalgic again...

Sigh. Why did I ever leave AUP? If I didn't leave AUP, I would be back home in Malaysia studying for my last finals with my friends, worrying about my new life in America, attending farewells, having my own farewell, going to airport etc etc.

Why did I make the decision to leave all those? Sigh. It's too late....

Anyhow, I wish everyone in INTI good luck for your finals! For those who are flying to US for this Fall semester, I wish you all the best. I will miss you guys. I hope that you guys won't just remember me as 'a friend I once had in INTI', but remember me as Raymond. Sigh. I will be very sad if you forgot me. Good luck in the State friends. Have fun!