3 more days~

It's gonna be the final of the final battle of the year. 3 more days time. Tuesday. 9 till 12.10. The final battle. Of. The. Year. I just can't wait for this to finish. Then I have take a break for the rest of the year. That is, until the results come out and I cry about it for a while, then I'll continue to be happy, until 22nd of Feb, when University reopens. Sigh...

I seriously can't wait for my finals to end. This has been one of the most stressing finals of my life. I've never ever been that stressed out for an exam before, not in Inti, not in Chong Hwa, and most certainly not in primary school. I guess it is true that they say University is kind of stressful. No wonder people go crazy when they study in University.

Speaking of which, will I ever be able to graduate? I guess it's kinda early to mention about graduation as it is just my first year of University. But this question never cease to exist in my mind. I'm so scared of failing a subject and end up not being able to graduate, let alone get my most dreamt first class honors degree. Oh well. Before worrying about that, I should be worrying about the exam that I have on Tuesday...

Kinda screwed up for this exam. This exam takes up 50% of the subject. As for the coursework of the other 50%, I got only like 33.5%. Hm... By Inti standards, I'll be looking at a C or a B-. But the system here in Australia is so different from the system I've ever been in. There is this stupid thing called scalling. If the mean results of the subject is not in the expected range, the results is scaled. Don't ask me how it really works. I don't know and don't intend to know. It's kinda stupid...

On a side note, I'm going to go back to South East Asia in about 20 more days time! First stop, Singapore. Second stop, KL, aka HOME SWEET HOME! I can't believe that the first time I came to Perth, I told like nearly everyone saying that I won't go back to Malaysia until 4 years later. What a joke. I guess home is where the heart is...

I should start concentrating on my studies now. Wish me luck. I need loads of luck and concentration. Till then!

Changing

I was just blogwalking through most of my friends' blogs. I found out something in common with nearly all my readings. Everyone changed and they yearn to change back to the old self. This is also the same case with me. I guess everyone is starting to feel the pains and cruelty of the real world. We are not shielded by our parents anymore and thus we don't live in our perfect little world anymore.

Sometimes I wonder if we could just recreate the old times. Yea yea. I know the world is like the cold blooded serial killer, but can't we just stop looking at the reality just for a minute or two? I just want to relive the old times for a minute. Sigh.

Some say changes are good. But what if I don't want to change? Everything happens for a reason. That is what they all say. It's not that I don't believe that, but it's that I choose to wish for the old good times to prolong. While just sitting here in front of the computer, I could list you like a million happy things that happened to me AND yet still feel emo.

Probably it's time for me to change perspective and look it from another angle. Perhaps I should see the glass as half full instead of half empty. I've always said that I don't want to be emo or something close to that (for example, saying I'm not going to be dodgy anymore), but it is quite hard to change your personality after it is incorporated in you for like months or years already.

Changes doesn't happen in a snap of the finger. NOTICING changes happen in a snap of the finger. Changes take a long time to complete, and even when you think it is complete, it is actually still changing. I guess this is like the wonders of changing. Normally, when noticing the changes, it is too late. Too late to do anything. The damage has been done. You can probably try to re-change it again, but it would be a tough one. It is always harder to revert stuff. Hard to write backwards, hard to say the reverted alphabets out loud, hard to walk backwards all the way... It is because we are just too used to the changes.

Ironic isn't it?

Changes. Whether you like it or not, just deal with it. You have no other choice.

Anyway, back to studies. Toodles...

Finals soon!

So the last day of University came. And it went. Sigh. How time passes hey? I'm now in the midst of preparing for my finals. And oh boy. This is the time where I seriously become emo. Why so? It's because I don't understand a *beep* of my studies. I don't even know why am I studying for it. Sigh. Why is my comprehension of my study materials so low. I need to understand all of it! I bet that Greek would be wayyyy much more easier than these *beep* I'm studying for.

But oh well. I look forward to the euphoric sense of emancipation that will come after 10th of November. Sweet sweet freedom for the next few months until my 2nd year of University starts. Ah. The joy and wonders of holidays. Not to mention the boredness. LOL

Anyhow, I SHOULD EFFING BE STUDYING NOW!!! WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE POSTING THIS BLOG POST?

Nah. I'm just bored out of my mind. But still, it's 2.53am now as I type this post. I should be in bed. No dirty thoughts there. Tsk tsk. Don't think dirty, 'kay? Hehe. I blame it on the caffeine. It makes me hyper and hard to concentrate. HOWEVER, I need it to stay awake. Ironic much?

Wish me luck for my finals =D

Peace out....

Last day of uni

Sigh. The last day of my first year of University classes. So uneventful. Nothing much to talk about. Feeling kinda nostalgic. But I have a feeling that my University life is kind of at a turning point. I hope it is a turn for the better, and not for the worse.

When I think back, I seriously don't know what have I achieved in this year of University. But then again, thinking back to Inti, I don't think I've achieved much too. Hehe. No difference there. I hope to have a difference when I finish and graduate with a degree.

Let's see. Finals is coming really soon. In just a few more days time, I'll be sitting for my finals. Sigh. I'm kinda scared but then, I'm too lazy to study xD

Wish me luck anyway. I cbb blogging. No mood.

It has been a while

It has been a while since I've blogged. And it has been a while since I came to Perth. In about 3 days time, my life as a first year university student will come to an end. Nostalgic? I guess so. So much of stuff has happened in the short period I have been here in Perth, both good and bad.

I've learn a lot of things since I came. A lot more than I can imagine. It makes me scared actually because I've not yet seen the whole wide world, but yet I've already started to feel intimidated. Life is not a bed of roses, how truly said. There are just too many obstacles in life. I'm not sure if I'm ready to cross these obstacles. When I fall, would I just stay there and cry? Or will I pick up myself and brush away the dust?

I've came a long way since. And in a few months time, it will be my 20th year on earth. How time passes. It's so fast! Sigh. I wish time would be less cruel and crawl by when my happy times come xD

Anyway, some update on my life here in Perth. Lazy to upload pictures though. Haha. But anyhow, I've moved into a new house. Note to self 1: NEVER MOVE HOUSE. House moving is one of the biggest hassle in life. I never knew I could accumulate so much stuff in just a short of period of time I'm here in Perth.

Note to self 2: Never assemble everything in one day. Your hands will kill you. On the bright side, I have a fully furnished room, and most of it was furnished by yours truly =D. The sense of achievement is overwhelming. I feel so proud. LOL

Anyway, I hope everything goes well for the presentation that is going to be held today. I don't wanna repeat this unit anymore...

A fat ass liar

I'm a fat ass liar. Yea yea. I promised that I won't be emo but guess what? I've been emo-ish again. Surprise surprise. Oh well. I guess that would be part of life. But gosh! I hope it doesn't evolve into depression. I probably should get my ass out from Perth to a happier place before depression comes. Hm.... Wishful thinking much?

Anyway, I haven't been blogging much. Can't seem to find the heart to do so. A lot of things have happened for the past few days. My feelings are just so mixed up now that I don't even know what am I feeling now. This is just like high school again where I don't know much about love. I guess I'm still a 'noob' at this love game. Sigh...

I'm so scared of loving again. I'm scared of getting hurt in a relationship again. I just can't bear it. I think if I get hurt here in Perth, I will lose my mind. All of my mind I think, since I've already lost my mind partially xD

Finals are soon to be here in less than a month. It's kinda scary how time passes so fast. Soon, my second semester in UWA is coming to an end and that signifies the end of my first year in UWA! 1 down, 3 more to go. Sigh. Time passes really really fast.

On another note, I want to get a piercing on my left ear and a tattoo on my leg. I'm sure that my parents will kill me if I did that but hey! I think it is cool! I reckon that I will regret it in the future but I'll just leave that for the future. Getting a piercing and a tattoo here in Perth is extremely pricey. I will try to get myself a job first before getting the piercing and tattoo. I wonder what my parents will do after seeing me with those?

唉。好久没用华语写部落格了。通常当我用华语的时候，是我蛮脆弱的时候。那么我这次为什么脆弱呢？答案很简单－－就是爱情。我真的不明白为什么爱情可以弄到我这么烦恼。我怎么不可以爱上一个已经爱上我的人？我为何要去爱一个不会对我怎样的人？

在个＇单行爱＇的路真的很辛苦啊。你看着你爱的人用＇特别＇的眼神去看别人，你的心就会碎成一万片。你会不断地问：＂为什么他不会看上我。。。＂

其实我到现在还没跟朋友说我真的喜欢的人。不好意思说出口耶。如果给你们知道肯定会吓死你们。哈哈。

我要回马来西亚。回到那边，我就不会看到你，我的心就会慢慢恢复原状。好期待回家哦。。。

October IS COMING!

Gosh! October is coming soon! And the weather is getting better, not that cold anymore, Thank GOD! And the sun is starting to come out longer! It's about 6pm now, and there is still SUNLIGHT! Can't be more happier to see that!

I live to see the sunlight. I love the sunlight. I'll be extremely emo if I don't see the sunlight. But now, HAPPY DAYS ARE COMING! I love you sunlight!

I'm being overly hyper. I can't wait for the emo side of me to just drop away and not come back for a period of time. I guess I've been emo quite a lot lately. But oh well. All's well that ends well? I hope so xD

Anyway, I should be getting back to my studies. Gonna head home at around 6.30pm probably. Please still be there sunlight!