8 more days

Many years ago, both Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit. And now, I'm tasting the forbidden fruit, and I'm liking it. OH WHY MUST I LIKE IT? I still have about 8 more days left in Malaysia and why must I do THIS before I go? Why did I get drunk? Why didn't I control my alcohol consumption? I'm in deep trouble.

It's rather cryptic eh? I can't really say much as I'm a bit ashamed on what I did... But I think most of you also can guess already la. Haha.... =.=

But I can't change anything now. I'll have to pay the consequenses anyway...

8 more days. It's seems so surreal that I'm gonna leave Malaysia in 8 more days time. But it's Australia. It isn't that far away from Malaysia anyway. However somewhere deep in my heart, I still wanna go to USA to further my studies. Why did I ever give in to my parents and go to Australia?

It's always regrets. I've always regretted many things in my life. But somewhere in the future, the regret passes and I'll be thankful for what I did. Would this time be the same? Would I still be thankful or would I continue to regret for the rest of my life? Only time would tell me.

Chinese New Year this year is rather quiet, just like Christmas day last month. I found out that when you are older, you will look forward to less things. I still remember when I was young I looked forward to everything that is special and out of the ordinary routine of my life. I used to stay up late and wake up early anticipating the things that are gonna happen. These days, I could just sleep through it and miss it. Why life is so different when we grow up....

Growing up is a tough process. It makes you mature, of which I don't wanna be. I still want my childhood innocence. My parents keep telling me that out there is a cruel and fake world, and that we have to be fake to be able to reach our targets. Why is the world so sick and twisted? Why can't I just be myself...

I'm being rather random in this post, typing whatever that comes into my mind. Haha. But nobody reads it anyway... >.<

Except for maybe the first part. I guess people will start to ask. I also cannot keep my secrets for too long. I'll have to tell someone sooner or later just to get the rock off my chest.

16 more days...

Well, I officially have 16 more days in Malaysia. Time is running out. It's time to tell my friend i like the girl already. Wish me luck

20 more days!

OMG! I can't believe it! In 20 more days time, I'm going to leave Malaysia! I really cannot believe it! It seems that time took a great leap or something like that! I need more Malaysian stuff first! I'm so gonna miss Malaysia!

I didn't know that 20 days is so fast! I just took a look at my calender and found out that 20 days is gonna pass just like that! Cuz this week i'm gonna be in college. Next week is Chinese New Year. And the following week I'm going to be home eating home cooked food and everything. And the following week, I'M GONE!

Damn. Time passes fast. And this poses a new problem for me.

Well, I guess quite many people knows already. I like this girl. Fine right? I should just tell her I like her! But hell. I'm scared she will be scared by me saying I love her and we might not even be close friends anymore. Think this is minor? Try adding this on to my problem. A close friend of mine told me that he likes her too! OMG! Catch 22!

I think I should not tell her that I love her and try to matchmake both of them. Am I stupid?

Why me

Love. Do you know what is love? Well, I thought I knew but little did I know I know shit about love. Love is a sweet and funny thing. But for me, love sucks. Why must the love path for me be so tough? Why must I fall into this stupid trap...

The person that I'm in love with is always not the person I like. However, the person that I really like will never be my partner. Why is life so cruel to me T.T

Why am I always stuck in a one way street love? Why can't I enjoy a two way street love? It's making me give up on love actually. Maybe I should really give up on love. How ironic. And I told my friends never to give up on love while I give up on love. Haiz. Why am I not practicing what I preach? It's so tough for me.

I think I'm gonna give up on love. Peace out.

1.What’s your ambition?
- Be a wonderful person and live life to the fullest =)

2.Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
- Friends are more important. Unless of course the boy/girlfriend is a good one =)

3.How often do you think of committing suicide?
- Quite often, I guess. But as long as I 'think' and not 'do', I guess I'm safe xD

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Never =)

5.What can't you live without?
- Family, friends and my dog.

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Dude, I study science... But if you mean metaphorically, I guess so. There is always a turning point at the bottom, unless you die =)

7.What is your goal for this year?
- Do well in Australia

8.What does LOVE means to you?
- I hate confusing and one way street love. And too bad I'm stuck to it.

9.What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?(list 10)
- 1 way. By completing me =)

10.What are you really afraid of?
- Leaving friends and family.

11.What are your bad habits?
- Talk nonsense, lie, lust =)

12.Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
- Get a life =0

13.State a random fact about yourself.
- I am short.

14.What does flying means to you?
- Having wings =)

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
- Love

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.
- Fun, wonderful, friendly, caring, fantastic, emoish xD

17.Are you currently single or?
- single T.T

18.What is in your mind now?
- It's the matter of who, and not what. I don't lie to you. It is HE who is on my mind now. Guess who is HE. Damn. I like him.

19.Who are you?
- I am a confused person.

20.Who do you want to be 10 years later?
- A person who has a purpose in life.

Instructions:
Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 peoples.
List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they’ve been tagged.

Tags:
EVERYONE ON MY LIST!

19 Years Old

I'm officially 19! Damn! It's my last year before I hit 2 decades old on earth! Boy do I sound old. I believe my 'hinges' are creaking already. Gotta oil it xD

Anyway, this year's birthday has been quite peaceful. No ragging involved. It's actually quite sad. I missed being 'bullied' on my birthday. Haha.

But anyway, it was quite a boring birthday, at least till at night. I went to kepong for Korean BBQ at night with CF people, namely Christine Fake, Christine Original, Andrew (Ah Tan), Joshua (Shortie), Swee Ling (Ah Siau), Kylie (Kili), Fiona (Fiona LAI! (come xD)) and Me (yours truly).

They gave me 12 donuts instead of a cake. Yummy! Wahahaha. And they gave me a quite personal homemade present. I'll upload the picture of the present soon. I've always liked homemade presents. It seems more homey and more closer to my heart. I guess I'll be bringing it to Australia.

I'm now 1 year older, none the wiser nor mature. Haha. I've gotta be more matured instead of being so childish so often. Being childish has its positive effects too. Haha. Guess what is it? (Hint: Girls =))

This is gonna be my last birthday in Malaysia for a long time. I still have 25 more days left of Malaysian atmosphere! It's so fast!

It's a New Year

New year, new resolutions, new people, new environment, new everything. This year is gonna be another 'revolutionizing' year for me. Why? I'm going to Australia in less than a month's time! I'm leaving Malaysia so soon! I can't really believe it!

Until now, I'm still doubting my decisions to accept the offer to Australia. Is it the right choice to go? Am I making rash decisions? Will I regret my choice? Gawd. The suspense is getting me both excited and anxious.

Other than that, I'm having my 'normal' fights with my parents. It's always like that. When I make a life changing decision, my parents always question me more than ever, which makes me get impatient and finally blow my top. Why must they fight against me? Why must my parents say I shouldn't do this AFTER making the decision.

Before making this decision, my parents kept telling me to go Australia. After accepting everything, they now say I should continue my American Degree Programme. WHAT THE HELL! Now I really realize that I cannot please them. I have to make my own choices based on my needs, and not theirs. If by me saying so, I think I've made the wrong choice of going to Australia.

What a 'great' way to start a new year. The wrong choice. Bad.