Thinking

I've always thought that I have it hard in life. I have not a great voice, not a great mind, not a great body, not a great face. To sum it up, not a great person. I feel that I'm never going to succeed in life. I often feel that I'm a useless, pathetic prick, a good for nothing person who is on Earth to just waste the resources here.

Never once I thought to think how blessed I am actually. I have a family. I have close relatives. I have close friends. I have a roof over my head. I have food on the table. I have clothes to wear. I have both hands and legs. I have a voice. I can hear. I can smell. I can see. I can sense. Heck. I'm even overseas furthering my studies.

I'm very very blessed already. But yet I still complain and whine. Constantly. "I hate my life", "I'm emo", "I don't want to study", "I want that car", "I want that new handphone". I want this. I want that. I hate this. I hate that. Constant whining is always heard from my mouth. What a brat I am aye.

It's time for me to stop my whining. Pinch me if I whine. kthxbai

2 birthdays in a row

It was quite a fun night. First, we went and surprise Jordan, and then we went to Prita's house to surprise her. It was a fun day =D

It was a very hectic day for me. Morning, I woke up at like 7 to start baking with Shiyeng and Sinyee for Prita's and Jordan's cupcakes. We baked till like 10.40am. It was quite fun baking those stuff. We forgot to put in chocolate chips for the banana cupcake, which resulted in us baking some chocolate chip cookies. We made some icing for the cupcakes and GOSH! IT WAS SO FREAKING SWEET! 500 grams worth of sugar in that icing. Sugar rush much?

Anyway, after baking, I wanted to go gym and subsequently university to study. But of course, waking up at 7am took a huge toll on me and thus, I went back to bed and slept. Haha.

I went to church at around 4 something. Left early to head off to work at around 6pm. Work was hell tiring. Sigh. Earning money is so hard, but I have to do it. Cuz I have been wasting a lot of money lately. Work was really really hard. Hope to get a better job and a better paid one too =D

Anyway, after leaving my work, Jon Lim came and picked me up. And we set of to Myaree utopia to get Jordan's cake first. We first went to Prita's house to finish the cupcakes along with Prita's cousin. Then we all went to Jordan's house to surprise him. He was shocked to see us as Sinyee lied to him saying that we were waiting for people first. After doing a quick bday song, we adjourned to Prita's place.


We hid in the dark, cracked some dirty jokes, like always while waiting for Prita to come back. The first thing when she came back was that she noticed our shoes. We hid our shoes in the hall but then we thought that because it was dark, she couldn't see. But.. Sigh. Oh well. She was still shocked to see us all there. She only could say 2 sentences, repetitively. It was 'Oh my gawd!' and 'What the hell!'. It was kinda awkward as no one knew what to say. haha

All in all, I hope they had a nice bday surprise!

A Mixed Feeling

I don't know what I am experiencing now. It's a mixed feeling. It's not emoness, nor it's happiness. I don't know what brought on this feeling too. I don't understand this. What is happening to me? I really don't know. But 1 thing is for sure is that this is NOT emoness.

Anyway, I'm into my 3rd week of uni and oh boy. Assignments are starting to come in and I don't know how to do them. I'm so scared. My heart is not really prepared for this sem yet. I need to study, but yet where is the motivation?!

Also on a side note, I've been contemplating some stuff about my life. It's probably high time that I change some stuff. But I don't know. Sigh. I'm so indecisive. I'm really really really indecisive.

I think this sem is another 'special sem' for me. Every semester in UWA brings a new flavour into my life. And this semester is no different, at least up till now. This semester, I have to learn how to be patient while dealing with some people. This semester is also a semester whereby I want to meet more locals. I actually want to attend a church where is predominantly locals. I want to feel like I'm in Australia, and not in an Asian country. Sigh. But I'm like so lazy to change church. And scared too. I should not be scared of change, I know. But... SIGH

LOL. I think I have been complaining a lot here xD

To tilt the balance back, I'm going to attend an event that is at Hilton Hotel soon =D I hope I can socialize a lot there and know a lot of people! Can't wait for it. I can dress up too!!!!

Oh well. I should be getting ready for church now. It's going to be a long long long night. Tell you why in the next post.

2nd Week

It's now the second week of uni. I'm feeling very bored. Very very very bored. I know I said that I would study every week. But the heck about it. I don't feel like studying yet. I'm so lazy and I'm a very good procrastinator. Assignments, thank God hasn't really piled up yet. I hope that there won't be many assignments.

Oh yea. On a bright side, I got a car. A 3k 2nd hand car. A white Holden Barina. I'll upload the photo of the car someday soon. Can't be bothered at the moment xD

What else should I blog about?

I got sick last week because after eating fish and chips (It's quite heaty), I drank in a dark chocolate dip (makes me even more heatier). Thus, I had a sore throat which escalated into a mild fever, then a mild flu. I'm getting better now though.

My life is pretty much not eventful at the moment. But then again, my life is never eventful. Should I open a can of worms into my life? Should I invite drama into my life? Would I be able to cope up with dramas in my life? I think not.

Anyhows, I've kinda succeed in not being emo for the past 2 weeks! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!