The 1st semester for me in UWA has officially finished. It has been like four months since I last saw Malaysia. 4 months! It's quite long. 4 months of not seeing my Malaysian friends. 4 months of not seeing my parents. 4 months of not seeing my dog. 4 months of not sleeping in my room. Hm.. I wonder if my 'stash' in my room is still there. I haven't even drove for 4 months. Hands are quite itchy to get on a steering wheel and drive a car.
4 months. That is seriously very long. But then again, it kinda passed just like in a blink of an eye. I can still remember vividly 20 days before I came to Perth. And now, it's like about 10 more days till I fly back to Malaysia for a visit. It feels weird to say that. Flying back to Malaysia for a visit. It's like I'm having my holidays in Malaysia, and not in other foreign countries.
A lot of things have changed since I came here to Perth. And by a lot, I mean a lot. I've changed a lot also. But mostly not to my liking. I've become more twisted, I think. More fake. Slightly more selfish. I don't like myself being like this. But drastic times call for drastic measures. I changed because I needed to survive in this sick world. But anyway, I hope I'm going to be back to normal when I'm in Malaysia again. I just can't wait to go back to Malaysia.
People used to say that University is like the best years of your life. But I digress. University is a shitload of tests and assignments. And to top it off, you're no longer being spoonfed. Which means, you have to basically do everything on your own. Study your own materials, read your own labs, do your prereading before classes etc etc. And it's hard for me to just move over like this. Furthermore, I have to do my own chores, a feat which I never did when I was in Malaysia. Haha. Things have seriously changed, to my chagrin.
But like normal, I'm still fickle minded on what to Major in. I guess old habits die hard. God knows how many things I've thought I wanted to major in and gave up in the end. Everyone who knows me knows it too. And now, I doubt that I want to major in Engineering. It's just kinda tough for me. I don't know if I'm cut out for it. I rather do English or PR. But then again, when I do that, I will probably say I'm not cut out for it either. Haha. If only I can just not study anymore, how wonderful is that...
Oh well. I still have to suffer through the coldness of Perth's weather for about a week till I go back to Malaysia. Warm and stuffy climate, shitty yet unlimited internet HERE I COME!
today i don't feel like doing anything
13 years ago
1 comment:
ya.. waiting for you to come back! hehe
Post a Comment