A New Outlook

Hm... For the past few days (or weeks or months or years!!!!) I have been really really really really really (x infinity) down. Now, I feel dumb for feeling so emo for so long. I'm now adopting a new positive outlook in life. I will now look for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, look for the silver lining in the clouds and look at a cup as half full instead of half empty.

Looking back now, I found out that I've lost a lot of things while being emo. But the past shall remain in the past and I shall look forward into the future. It's like I'm starting a new life all over again. It's good, in a way.

Anyway, in a totally unrelated story, there are many people who are gonna leave INTI this semester. Let's see. Andrew Tan, Iggoh, Yi Herng, Annitah and Kimberley. Well, all I have to say to you guys is... GOOD LUCK IN LIFE!! I WILL MISS YA!!!

Back and still Emo-ing

I'm back from my little trip to Ipoh. Gonna blog about it sometime in the future.

Now, I wanna blog about my feelings.

I have been emo for the whole day today. I really don't know what has come upon me. Never in my life have I been emo for a long time. What is happening to me??!!! Actually, this emo feeling comes and goes. But when it comes, it stays for a long time.

Is it because I'm lonely? Do I have a lonely heart that yearns for love?

Actually, my heart don't yearns for love. I love someone already. But that is a one-way-street love only. Wanna know who is that? Cannot tell you lah here. Hehe. Too public already.

I really like the person. But... I don't know!!! My feelings are too jumbled up already.

I don't know what to do with life.

This is intefering with my studies already. I know I once said that love wouldn't interfere with my studies but this is way beyond my control.

Help me.

Please

Off for the weekend

On Hiatus....

Muahahahahahahaha

What is with today?

What is with nearly half of the population today? Why is everyone so emo today? Why am I so emo today? Why am I so emo lately? What is with the word emo? Why why tell me why.

Not sure what overcame my friends and I today, but quite a handful of people was emo today. I hereby declare today as an Emo day. Hehe.

Nothing much to post actually. Just that I'm extremely emo. And I'm in trouble. I haven't studied for my test tomorrow. I'm dead.

Not.

Haha. Gonna go study later.

Anyway, here are some lame jokes.

Once upon a time, a polar bear thinks that the sun is too shiny, so he put up
sunglasses. Then he became a panda...

One upon a time, a bun was hungry, so he ate lots of meat. Then he became a
pao...

Black cat fell into water, white cat save black cat from the water. Black cat
feel so thankful, and say:"miao"

I guess that is all. Till next time~

Emo-ing...

Tagged

I haven't done these kind of tagged stuff for a long time. A long time since friendster. Since I have no life on a perfect Friday night, I guess I'll do the questions xD

Instructions : Remove one question from below and add in your own question, make it a total 20 questions. Then tag 8 people from your list. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them that they have been tagged.

1. At what age you wish to marry?
As fate would want me to marry.

2. Will you consider sexual relationships before marriage?
Never. I'm clean and intend to be clean. Until after marriage. Then... Muahahahahahahahhaa.....

3. Do you smoke?
This, I do not deny. But trying hard to stop! I still feel guilty when I pick up a stick. But, Oh well. What goes, goes. Que sera, sera. Hehe.

4. List out two gifts you'd like to receive now.
Hm.... The first one would be an abundance of friends. Friends are leaving me at this time to furthur their studies. I've never felt so left alone before. I need more friends to make me feel secure.
The second one would be a new life. Hehe. I wish sometimes there is a reset button for life to reset the things and to unto the things you've done in the past which has a great impact on you which makes you rethink your future which makes you think you shouldn't have did that which made you think that you have a reset button which makes you think that you're repeating yourself. Muahahahaha. I don't understand what I'm typing. Kudos to those who understands xD

5. Who did you text most lately?
Yi Herng, Chui Wen, Khai Chee and Sotong Shan.

6. How old are you?
You have to phrase that quesion better. Biologically, I'm 18. But mentally, I'm not even 10. I want lollies!!!! Don't trust me? Ask around and see xD

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
Food! And a pack of Salem xD

8. State 3 people of the opposite sex that first comes to your mind. Who will you most likely date?
Xiao Wei, Fiona and Swee Ling. None. Haha. Why? Xiao Wei and Swee Ling are elder than me. And Fiona has someone already. Hehe. But then again, I'm not so sure about Xiao Wei. Muahahahahaha....

9. Where do you wish to get married ?
At a decent lil' church. Which friends and family will be all around. And I'll live happily ever after. The end.

10. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by love?
I have no idea. Why must it always be about love.... Why can't it be about other stuff? But then again, I love love. Hehe.

11. How many kids do you want?
I don't know. A football team?

12. Are you in love?
Judging from my previous posts, I guess I am.

13. Where is the latest restaurant you have dinner?
I have no idea. It has been a long time since I went to a proper restaurant for a perfect dinner. A candlelight dinner.

14.Name the latest book, you bought.
The doomspell. With that book, I WILL DOMINATE THE WORLD!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA...

15. Do you believe in God?
Yes. Without him, I am nothing.

16. Name your favourite game or sport.
Talking nonsense.

17. The most exciting place you want to go?
THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

18. Hugs or Kisses?
Both. They are like butter and bread. Inseparatable.

19.What is the latest porn website you visited?!
www.i-never-surf-porn-in-my-life-believe-it-or-not.com

20.What's your feeling after doing this tag?
Even more bored...


People I tag:
Everyone on my list and beyond!

Now, SHOO!

People Come, People Go

People come and people go. This is how life works. Life goes on for everyone.
Time waits for no one.

This is what I need to learn to do. I have to learn to let go of old friends and get along with new friends. However, I understand that good friends are hard to come by. I will forever miss those who are going to go overseas. Especially you. I'm sure you know I'm talking to you, directly. Hehe.

The life cycle goes on. Dwell on the past I must not. For this, I will look way into the future. I wish that the future will be bright for me.

I wonder what will my friends feel when I leave for US next year around August...

I wonder what will I feel too...

Lately

I haven't posted for a week or so. I wanted to post up the PROM pictures but I am too lazy. Maybe I'll do that post some other time. Today, I just wanna vent my feelings that is within me.

For the past few days, I have been putting sad messages on my MSN. Why? It's because I'm suffering. Not gonna post what I am suffering because this place is too public. Hehe. Anyway, just a little hint. It's about confused about love. Why is love so confusing. Anyway, not many people can see I'm suffering because I really can hide my sad feelings sometimes. I can be jovial at many times but actually behind those smiles and laughters, there are loads of sorrows.

Stress has been building more and more. I was so stressed up about this problem that I didn't really study well for my test. But then again, I don't study well for my test although I don't have any problems. So, screw that. Hehe. The problem has been preventing my from going to sleep.

This is like a nightmare happening all over again. It always happens every year. Since Form 4. I can remember it vividly. Why is life so cruel to me. But life is not unfair. Haha. It is cruel at times, but it shines on me at times too. There are always ups and downs in life. This is the truth that I have to learn to accept in order to be liberated.

As I said it is happening all over again, I think I'm reverting back to my old bad habits. Sad case la whey.....

I should not revert bad to my old bad habits.

I digress.

Or maybe not.

Anyway, I can wish that windstorm that I created can end. But I know the ending isn't any time sooner. Can anyone lend me a shelter so that I can hide there?

Preferably one that is strong.

And big.

And everlasting.