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悲哀的生活

唉，考试又即将来临了。好烦哦。我真的不想去温习了。整天在温习，怎么不会闷。

我说啊，我现在真的搞不懂我的心情。除了读书，我也在烦生活的挫折。人生，为什么要那么的痛苦啊。读书已经够烦了，现在还要烦友情和爱情。再加上我又想买这个那个，恐怕钱不够用了。

我还有大约18天就回大马了！我真的迫不及待！回到去，我就会整天吃喝玩乐！哇哈哈。真是我的天地了！

你是不是觉得很奇怪我为什么用华文打出这个部落各哦！这是因为，我实在太太太太不想读书了！！！！！！

没办法。下个星期就考试了。应该去温吧。

掰掰

The end is near, for this semester, that is

It's the last week of uni. Die. Finals are coming in about 2 weeks time. Shitzzz. I need to study but yet, I'm still feeling SO LAZY! To add on it, I just downloaded all 7 seasons of Sabrina the Teenage Witch and all 5 seasons of Queer As Folk. LOL. Damn. But then again, I do study a little everyday. I do at least 1 tute sheet 1 day. Which is good, kinda.

I think university is getting duller and duller as the days pass by. I remember semester 1 was a great and awesome time. And then a whole lot of incidents happened after that. And it started to go down hill from there. It's now so boring. And I'm still at home at 1pm on a Thursday afternoon. I should be studying! Gah!

So I have 1 year and 2 semesters left. At least I hope I do, if I don't fail any units. I so seriously need to pull up my grades. Prita, Erik and I were talking about our average mark the other day. Prita was saying how low was hers and Adrian's was quite high. I'm only standing on 69 (nice number by the way. Teehee). Then Prita just had to ask Erik how much is his. SIGH. So demoralized man. He average mark is like *WHOOOSHHHH* HELL HIGH! =(

So, while hoping that my marks will magically climb, I'm still sitting here in my room strumming my guitar and typing this blog. The way about it. I should get studying.

Wish me luck.

And it's back

The time of mugging has come back. Uni has started it's momentum again. But sigh. I'm still so so so so so very lazy to study. I know that my finals is coming in like about 5 more weeks time but yet, I'm still lazing around everyday doing stuff not related to uni. Why am I such a lazy bum?

Things aside, swot vac was quite fun. The road trip was fun. People got drunk and it was fun seeing how they acted when they are drunk. There were like 10 people down south and the ratio of girl to guy was 1 to 4. And there were 13 bottle of hard liquor. Fun eh? Drinking spree!

I can't really think of whatelse to blog about. Life has been just like that. Nothing much to expect at all. Boy. I'm beginning to sound like a bore.

Swot Vac!

It's the study break! I have a lot of stuff to catch up on, but who cares atm. Surely not me.

BUT ANYWAY! I'M GOING FOR A ROADTRIP TOMORROW! I can now feel the excitement. First road trip of the year. Should be a fun one. 3 days 2 nighs down to Dunsborough. 10 people, 2 cars. Should be fun. I hope. Fingers crossed.

However, I would be missing the footie practice this week. It was fun playing footie last week. Interesting to pick up a new sport. And since I am in Australia, it would be good for me to pick up footie since it is an aussie sport.

On a lighter note, I have been drinking quite a bit for the past week. Becoming an alcoholic! OH NO! But wait a second. I don't drink till I'm drunk. I'm a responsible drinker. Wait a second. That is what all pre-alcoholics say. DIE! Oh well. I'll just continue drinking. But not overdrinking of course.

The Asian Mentality

Being Asian sucks at time.

I was doing PROSH this year, which is a charity event where we have to dress up and head off somewhere in the early morning to sell a satirical newspaper to raise money for some foundations. Being the Asian that I am, I'm naturally shy. Gosh man. I didn't really dare to walk up to strangers and ask them whether they wanna get a copy of the newspaper. I had to muster all my courage and kept my thick skin on and ask strangers. It's so hard man.

Why must Asians be such introverts? Maybe I'm stereotyping Asians. But gosh man. It's so hard to just go up to a stranger, smile and talk. I need to work on that already. It's not like I'm going up to a stranger and asking him/her to buy a condom and have sex with me. Now that, would be awkward.

Another stupid Asian mentality comes during dinner. Oh gosh man. It's the last piece of chicken! I want it but I'm too Asian to grab the last piece! What if the others think I'm greedy? What if... what if... It gets on your nerve sometimes. If you want it, just take it man. But then again, I do it most of the time. SIGH....

But rest assured, I'm still proud of my Asian heritage.

Start of the 5th week

And so we proceed into the 5th week of uni. How time flies when you are in uni aye. I have sinking feeling that this semester might be quite hard. There are seriously loads of stuff that I dont' even understand. So much for 'trying' to study every week.

Other than university, nothing much has happened in my life. Life is just so boring. Sigh. Nothing much to blog about either. I'm just blogging for the sake of updating it, since I haven't been really updating it much lately.

Last Saturday, I went to the beach with the International Student Society committee. I feel so embarrassed man. ALL of the guys there are so athletic and they all have nice bodies. I need to gym more!!! But then again, I'm such a lazy ass person. Maybe I should consider liposuction. HAHA!

By golly. My life is seriously really boring. When did I became such a bore?

2nd week of uni

Hello! I'm back to blogging for a while =D. There are so many things happening around the world now. Fights in Libya, earthquake and tsunami in Japan. Is the world coming to an end? Someone asked me to read Matthew 24 and the whole chapter goes like this:

¹And Jesus went out, and departed from the temple: and his disciples came to him for to shew him the buildings of the temple.

²And Jesus said unto them, See ye not all these things? verily I say unto you, There shall not be left here one stone upon another, that shall not be thrown down.

³And as he sat upon the mount of Olives, the disciples came unto him privately, saying, Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world?

⁴And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.

⁵For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.

⁶And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.

⁷For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.

⁸All these are the beginning of sorrows.

⁹Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake.

¹⁰And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.

¹¹And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.

¹²And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

¹³But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

¹⁴And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come.

¹⁵When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:)

¹⁶Then let them which be in Judaea flee into the mountains:

¹⁷Let him which is on the housetop not come down to take any thing out of his house:

¹⁸Neither let him which is in the field return back to take his clothes.

¹⁹And woe unto them that are with child, and to them that give suck in those days!

²⁰But pray ye that your flight be not in the winter, neither on the sabbath day:

²¹For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be.

²²And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened.

²³Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not.

²⁴For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.

²⁵Behold, I have told you before.

²⁶Wherefore if they shall say unto you, Behold, he is in the desert; go not forth: behold, he is in the secret chambers; believe it not.

²⁷For as the lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

²⁸For wheresoever the carcase is, there will the eagles be gathered together.

²⁹Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken:

³⁰And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.

³¹And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.

³²Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh:

³³So likewise ye, when ye shall see all these things, know that it is near, even at the doors.

³⁴Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass, till all these things be fulfilled.

³⁵Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away.

³⁶But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.

³⁷But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

³⁸For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark,

³⁹And knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

⁴⁰Then shall two be in the field; the one shall be taken, and the other left.

⁴¹Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left.

⁴²Watch therefore: for ye know not what hour your Lord doth come.

⁴³But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up.

⁴⁴Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh.

⁴⁵Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season?

⁴⁶Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing.

⁴⁷Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods.

⁴⁸But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming;

⁴⁹And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken;

⁵⁰The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of,

⁵¹And shall cut him asunder, and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Personally, I think this verse is coming to pass. But then I don't know or sure that it is the time. I guess I can only trust God on what is happening and just not doubt him. But being human, I guess it's just natural for me to ask why and doubt. This chapter really gives me a lot of things to think about.

On a lighter note, I went for Far East Movement. And guess what?

Bwahaha. I managed to get a picture with Jason Roh of Far East Movement. They came to Perth to do the opening act for Rihanna's concert tour. But they were in Metros (a club in the city) to perform for like an hour. AND I WAS THERE =DDDDD It was quite fun being in a club again. But I think going to club brings out the uglier side of me sometimes. So it's probably not a good idea for me to keep clubbing.

It's going to be the 3rd week of uni soon. I'm actually quite scared for all of my units. It's quite tough and I'm a very lazy lazy lazy person. Die. But I will try to study. I haven't skipped any class... yet. I don't plan on skipping any as of now.

I'm joining quite a lot of things this year. I'm trying to be active in university to perk up my resume. My resume is just too empty.

A wisp of memory

Dear Sir,

You're one of the best teacher I have ever had. You taught me maths in ways I have never imagined. People said that you teach fast. I'd say you teach just at the right pace. You've made me love maths. Your smartness never cease to astound me. Everyday, you would just bring a mug of water to class and just teach through memory. That, is what real teaching is about I guess.

I still remember you set all those hard questions. We would all complain. Remembering those times, I think it was actually quite fun. We held pride when we even got 1 or 2 marks over 40. It was still something good that we achieved.

I remember many things happened in form . I still remember the time you smiled when you heard the discipline teacher talk about 'aluba' through the school intercom. I could still remember the time when your sickness hit you and you fell in the classroom. Boy, were we all so worried about you. I could still remember us all making paper cranes to pray for your fast recovery. Lo and behold, you came back within 1 week to teach us again. Your dedication knows no boundaries at all. I was very amazed. I believed nothing could hold you back.

After I left high school, I only saw you once. And I remember you asking me what I was studying and other stuff. I think that was the only time I saw you after I left high school. Then, you left Chong Hwa to go Taylors to teach.

I never knew that this day would come so early to tell you to rest in peace, sir. I'm sincerely devastated by this news. Until we meet again, dear sir.

Your student of two years,

Raymond (and your namesake)

2 more weeks

Enough said

Try - Asher Book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part

or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

Hello Stranger

It has been a long long long time since I've blogged. But since I have nothing to do at all today, I'll just blog for the fun of it.

I'm already half way through my holidays. University is going to start again in about 3 weeks time. I don't wanna go back to Perth. I just wanna quit uni and rot for the rest of my life. But oh well. I have to conform to social norms and finish uni. How annoying is that. But still, I guess it is better than bumming around for the rest of my life.

This has been one of the most tiring holidays in my entire life. I've went to a few places around Malaysia and to Thailand. It's so tiring to fly. Even thinking of flying makes me wanna puke already. But those are good times though. Traveling is fun xD

Malaysia is still in the Chinese New Year mode. Many Chinese shops are still closed. It's only the 6th day of CNY. But I'm already bored. However, BRING ON THE NEW YEAR GOODIES! The downside to this year's new year is that I didn't get to eat any pineapple tarts. I want my pineapple tarts! Maybe I should bake them. But then again, it's so much hassle to bake it. I'll just wait for it to magically appear in my pantry =D

I'm going to just laze around

I'm old...

So it is done. I am officially 21 already. Wow. 21 years on earth. 21 years of living. 21 years of breathing. Damn this sudden rush of emotions. I feel so old. 21. Wow. What a milestone for myself.

In this short span of 21 years, a lot of things has happened. God has indeed being good to me and blessed me with a lot of things. I know sometimes I'm blind and oblivious to the wonderful things that befall me. But rest assured that I'm still thankful for those times.

I'm feeling kinda nostalgic now. I'M 21! Gosh! I'm old and ancient! No offense to those who are elder than 21 xD I know my time will come soon. Haha.

But anyway, I can't wait to go back to Malaysia. To my family, to my friends and to my doggie. I miss them. Loads.

I hope that this would be a year full of hope and joy!

21

I'm going to be 21 soon!

I pray that I'll be living the life! Looking forward to a good year ahead. The best has yet to come. I hold on firmly on that.

I'm quite lazy to type more. I'll type more about my pressies and stuff on my next post xD

The final days

Wow. 2010. It's coming to an end. Another year is going to pass. Where does all the time go to? I felt like it's just yesterday that 2010 just started. In just a few snaps, it's gone. And I'm going to get ready to usher in the year 2011, my 3rd year in Australia, my 3rd year in UWA.

I just can't fathom that I'm going to finish my university life in 2 more years. And then I'll be getting along with the next phase of life. Work. Oh man. I don't want to think about it first.

I hope 2011 will be better than 2010. To be honest, I don't really remember what major happened in 2010. It was an okay year. But not a really great one. There were falling outs, new friendships, stronger friendships, infatuations and more. I guess that is just how I roll.

I'll be turning 21 next year too. In my opinion, that is the optimum age to be in. I don't want to grow older nor younger than 21. I want to stay there for the rest of my life. But then again, I might change my mind when time comes. Who cares though.

I want to end 2010 and start 2011 with a great bang. I want 2011 to be a good year. A year where I can find good relationships and good results. And not forgetting a good internship.

But still, I thank God for the year 2010. I learnt quite a lot of things this year. I learnt that I am actually expandable. I learnt that there are still many facets of people that I still don't know. I learnt that the best, has yet to come.

With that, I anticipate year 2011. The best, has indeed yet to come.

What if?

Life is full of what if(s). I find myself constantly asking myself. What if I did that? What if I told him that? What if I went to the states? What if I told her I loved her? What if I have continued on in the gangster group? What if I took drugs? What if I studied hard?

What leads on to what if questions? Regrets. And why do I have regrets? Because of choices I have made and the inability to see into the future. This reminds me of a poem which I think I have posted before in my blog. It's one of my favourite poem of all time. The road less travelled by Robert Frost.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

This is absolutely one of the best poem of all time. I am telling this with a sigh now. I take the road less traveled. Always. Since young. I went into Primary School, Secondary School, College and University without knowing many people beforehand. I just thrust myself into a world that I am unfamiliar with and I try to be resilient.

Is this a mistake? Is this why I always ask what if this and what if that?

People always tell me not to look into the past. If I look into the past, I would only see things that I missed and not look at things that I have obtained. Well, I can't help looking into the past. It's only when I see the things that I didn't achieved that I would appreciate the things that I have manage to do.

Life still goes on ayway

The aftermath

I just checked my results for my 4th semester in UWA. It's not a pretty site. It's probably one of the worst results I have ever gotten in my whole entire life. I flunk 3 of my units. Well, according to my standards, not uni standards. Gosh. This is bad.

I'm really failing uni. I'm not doing well at all. This is very very very bad. Is it time for me to quit uni? Should I just really quit uni? I'm like wasting my parents money here. I feel like a failure.

Oh well. Let this be a wake up call. I have to be more hardworking next semester already! Sigh. i know I have been telling myself this every semester. But I can't seem to set my priorities straight. God, help me please.

Knowing a 2nd Language

I'm working part time in a Japanese restaurant. It's quite fun to serve people. You get to see many different kind of people. Cheap people, wasteful people, funny people etc etc.

So when I work, I speak to customers with this fake-and-fail Australian accent. So, most of the people presume that I don't know other languages other than English. It's fun to listen in to their conversations. Some complain saying the food is little, some even asked one another why do I seem so scared. LOL.

I had 2 interviews in the past 2 weeks. None got back to me yet. Sigh. 1 from Maccas and 1 from Optus. I might get a response from Optus by tonight. Gosh. I really hope I get this job. I need a secure casual time job unlike my job in the Japanese restaurant. However, this week, I have been getting some afternoon shifts. So YEA! I have some income! Woohoo!!

IT'S THE HOLS!

The summer holidays are finally here. I can rest now finally. Finals was kinda harsh towards the end. It started off nice. Then it was downhill. But oh well. Results are going to come out in about 2 weeks time. I can only hope for the best.

I'm going back only on the 17th of January. Which means, I will celebrate my 21st bday here in Perth! I wonder who is left here to celebrate it with me...

I'm now in the mist of finding a new job. I had an interview with Maccas today. Hope I will get that job. Why do I need a job? BECAUSE OF CAR REPAIRS!

A few days ago, my car overheated and I sent it to the repair shop. After replacing the water pump and timing belt, I was told that the top part of my car's engine is kinda gone too. And guess how much it costs to change that part of the engine? 1.5k. Yes. You saw that right. 1.5k. Not $150. Sigh. I really need a job to cover that repair.

Other than that, I have the whole house to myself. I can walk around naked too if I want. Haha. Not that I do that, of course. There are both pros and cons to staying alone. But amazingly, I don't feel that emo staying alone. I feel just all right. Oh well. I guess I'm changing for the better.

Oh yeah. Last week, I went on a road trip up North. 12 hours drive. I drove 6 out of the 12 hours. It was quite tiring. We went ATV and snorkeling in this place called Coral Bay. The view was breathtaking. It was quite amazing to see God's amazing creation that is still somewhat left untouched by human hands.

I'm looking forward to going crabbing in mid December with friends. It should be fun catching crabs and then cooking it in the middle of the night. Yum yum.

A simple plea

Everyone has a dream. It doesn't whether is it a short term dream like passing the test that you have the next day, or is it a long term dream, like having the perfect family. A dream is still a dream. I constantly find myself pleading with God. Constantly whining, wanting something better than what I have now. At times, I might even question myself. Why isn't God answering?

Yea. I know that God has his own timing and that God will give you the BEST that he could give you. But still, I doubt. I question. I wonder. I'm guilty of doubts. I'm always doubtful, which leads to my indecisiveness.

But still, as time passes, I still hold on to the promise that He gave me. In Matthew 7:9-11, it says:
"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give ood gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!

Not only this verse gives me hope. In Matthew 6:26, it says:
"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"

These two verses give me the strength to continue to seek Him in every single thing.

As exams approaches and the last of assignments are meant to be handed in, stress levels are rising. But yet, I believe, everything will turn out in my favor. Everything happens for a reason, and the reason is Him.