Aloha from Singapore

Greetings! I'm now in Singapore lazing around. This is my last night in Singapore though. Haha. I'll be heading back to Malaysia tomorrow night. Nothing much to do here.

Lazy to type. Cheers =D

Last day

Today is the last day I'm here in Perth for the year. Gosh. I can still remember vividly the last day I was in Malaysia before I came to Perth. I still remember what I said, and yet I didn't fulfill it. I can't believe time passes so fast. Soon, it'll be a year gone and I'll be another year older. It's unbelievable that I've already spent like 2 semesters here in UWA. It's quite amazing how time flies.

2 semesters of full blown emotions. This year is the year where nearly all of my emotions surfaced. And in full blast mode. I guess I'm not as independent as I like to think I am. I'm very dependent on friends. Once I'm alone, emoness washes over me, leaving me vulnerable to a lot of things. I have to learn to keep that away. Will I be able to do that?

Anyway, for the past 4 days, I was away down South at Denmark (It's in Western Australia) and Albany. It was hell lot of fun! My perspective on some people changed drastically during this camp. I guess when they say 'you can't judge a book by its cover', they are right. This is one lesson that I learnt. The down south trip was AWESOME! By the way, I'm beginning to keep saying the word awesome. It's such an awesome word! xD

The scenery down south was SPECTACULAR! The scenery was absolutely breathtaking. Our God is indeed a great and wonderful God. I stood on the rocks above the ocean, taking in the cold and chilly sea breeze. It was so wonderful. It's just so freaking peaceful down there. It's a great relaxing thing to do right before I go back to the hustle and bustle of city life.

The fellowship was really awesome too! There were 19 of us that went down South in 3 cars, a Tarago, IMax and a Holden. It was so fun! Road trips are absolutely the BOMB! I want to do it every semester. I hope I have the money. Haha

Speaking of money, my mom wants me to work T___T She managed to find me a job (technically it's my uncle in Singapore) at a civil engineering firm. Not sure if I could get it. I'm having mixed feelings here. I want to work to get the experience and money. But I want to have fun at the same time too. Sigh. It's so troublesome to think eh.

Anyhow, I'm going to Singapore tonight. And Malaysia on 30th. Hope I have a great time! By the way, here are some of the pictures that I took while I was down South.

This is when I'm up on the 61 meters high tree. Scary yo!

This is the sunset. Awesome view.

Looking at the sea on the rocks. =D

This is a view of the sea as we pass by Albany. That, my dearies, is a Cruise Ship.

Lonely...

I'm now all alone at home. My housemates have flown back to Malaysia. Sigh. The house is so quiet. Making me emo~~

Anyway, I'll be going down south for 4 days next week. Then I'll be flying off to Singapore on Friday night, reaching on Saturday morning (Freakishly early in the morning). Hm... Can't wait.

Feeling so down that I don't feel like blogging much. Looking forward to be with people~

Bury the hatchets?

Things might not return to the same, scars shall always be there. I'm just gonna see how is the wound going to heal and to what extend will the wound heal. The emotional wound is a very tricky thing. It takes a long time to heal. Like most people say, time is a great healer. I'm not saying that it is not. But yet, time is probably one of the more complicated things in life. Some say that time is a great healer but some says time is cruel. How can something be good and bad at the same time?

It is probably like fire. There is a saying that goes like "Fire is your best friend when it is small and your enemy when it is big and uncontrollable". Time is somewhat similar to this, and yet there is a significant difference to it. Gosh. I don't know what am I rambling on now.

Why is life so tough? Why isn't there a reset button for life? No. Suicide is definitely not an option here. Yea yea. With suicide, you can run away from it. But my religion teaches me that Suicide is bad. And I don't plan to suicide anytime soon, nor for the rest of my time on earth. So people out there, don't worry.

Time to bury the hatchet, put the past behind me and try to do my own damage control now... Sigh. I'm always stuck with damage control. Someone help me do it? xD

Mistake?

Mistakes. Everyone makes them. Not many learn from them. Even throughout history, you can see that the once great leaders made severe mistakes and that led to the death of thousands. Thank God that my mistakes normally just involves me, myself and I. But the emotional cut is sometimes too hard to bear.

There are many decisions in life that I really regretted. Basically, coming to Perth is one. I still have 3 more years here in Perth. 3 years later, would I look back and just laugh at myself for regretting at this decision, just like how I laugh at myself for once hating Chong Hwa with a vengeance?

Basically for those who knows me extremely well, or maybe even for those who just know me on the surface, they might know that I am a person who seriously hates to be left out. I thought after moving in with friends, I wouldn't be feel that way anymore. But guess what? I'm wrong. Which led me to a point to question my own choice. Did I make the right choice to move in with them? But I guess it's kinda too late to change my mind again. I have to just stick with it. Sigh. This is seriously hell...

All I can do now is just pray for a peace of mind. And not think about it anymore. I asked my Cell leader what to do. She told me to tell them. I guess I will tell them, if they do it another time. But probably they were unintentional, but I don't know and I don't wanna know.

I just want to have friends...

THE END!

I'm no longer a freshman. As of today, I don't need to study a SHIT until next year! How great is that? Whoa. The feeling of freedom is so nice, so sweet. I can finally go back to being bored again. And yet, I think just within a few short days, I would say that I'm bored, and bored, and more bored. Ironic hey?

Anyhows, I'm having my long holidays. How will I spend it? I seriously don't know. I guess this would be one of the most lonely holidays ever. Sigh. But I will find peace in this season of lonelyness. One of my main objective this holiday is to grow stronger spiritually. Gonna seek Him even more.

So basically, I've finished my first year at UWA. Ah... The sentimental feeling is falling upon me now. One year in UWA. It is really unrealistic if I think of it sometimes. I mean like 1 year ago, I wouldn't ever imagine myself to be here in Australia. I've always thought that I would be in US at around this time. Since young, I wanted to be in US. However, the reality is that I'm here in Australia. It is weird how fate won't go the way you want it to go.

So here I am, close to being 1 year here in Perth. February 8th. It was the first day I touched down here in Perth. I would always remember the date.

Anyway, I'm off to drink to celebrate the end of exams. Till then.

3 more days~

It's gonna be the final of the final battle of the year. 3 more days time. Tuesday. 9 till 12.10. The final battle. Of. The. Year. I just can't wait for this to finish. Then I have take a break for the rest of the year. That is, until the results come out and I cry about it for a while, then I'll continue to be happy, until 22nd of Feb, when University reopens. Sigh...

I seriously can't wait for my finals to end. This has been one of the most stressing finals of my life. I've never ever been that stressed out for an exam before, not in Inti, not in Chong Hwa, and most certainly not in primary school. I guess it is true that they say University is kind of stressful. No wonder people go crazy when they study in University.

Speaking of which, will I ever be able to graduate? I guess it's kinda early to mention about graduation as it is just my first year of University. But this question never cease to exist in my mind. I'm so scared of failing a subject and end up not being able to graduate, let alone get my most dreamt first class honors degree. Oh well. Before worrying about that, I should be worrying about the exam that I have on Tuesday...

Kinda screwed up for this exam. This exam takes up 50% of the subject. As for the coursework of the other 50%, I got only like 33.5%. Hm... By Inti standards, I'll be looking at a C or a B-. But the system here in Australia is so different from the system I've ever been in. There is this stupid thing called scalling. If the mean results of the subject is not in the expected range, the results is scaled. Don't ask me how it really works. I don't know and don't intend to know. It's kinda stupid...

On a side note, I'm going to go back to South East Asia in about 20 more days time! First stop, Singapore. Second stop, KL, aka HOME SWEET HOME! I can't believe that the first time I came to Perth, I told like nearly everyone saying that I won't go back to Malaysia until 4 years later. What a joke. I guess home is where the heart is...

I should start concentrating on my studies now. Wish me luck. I need loads of luck and concentration. Till then!

Changing

I was just blogwalking through most of my friends' blogs. I found out something in common with nearly all my readings. Everyone changed and they yearn to change back to the old self. This is also the same case with me. I guess everyone is starting to feel the pains and cruelty of the real world. We are not shielded by our parents anymore and thus we don't live in our perfect little world anymore.

Sometimes I wonder if we could just recreate the old times. Yea yea. I know the world is like the cold blooded serial killer, but can't we just stop looking at the reality just for a minute or two? I just want to relive the old times for a minute. Sigh.

Some say changes are good. But what if I don't want to change? Everything happens for a reason. That is what they all say. It's not that I don't believe that, but it's that I choose to wish for the old good times to prolong. While just sitting here in front of the computer, I could list you like a million happy things that happened to me AND yet still feel emo.

Probably it's time for me to change perspective and look it from another angle. Perhaps I should see the glass as half full instead of half empty. I've always said that I don't want to be emo or something close to that (for example, saying I'm not going to be dodgy anymore), but it is quite hard to change your personality after it is incorporated in you for like months or years already.

Changes doesn't happen in a snap of the finger. NOTICING changes happen in a snap of the finger. Changes take a long time to complete, and even when you think it is complete, it is actually still changing. I guess this is like the wonders of changing. Normally, when noticing the changes, it is too late. Too late to do anything. The damage has been done. You can probably try to re-change it again, but it would be a tough one. It is always harder to revert stuff. Hard to write backwards, hard to say the reverted alphabets out loud, hard to walk backwards all the way... It is because we are just too used to the changes.

Ironic isn't it?

Changes. Whether you like it or not, just deal with it. You have no other choice.

Anyway, back to studies. Toodles...